Hold Sight

Can you grip a heart to save a soul? Dancing forever to change my reluctance. I am reckless and destroying, changing the fight. This ticking moment betrays my patience, banning me from the desolation I wish to repair. Along a solitary path I wage war against myself, retreating the beast and pouring wind ripped heat onto the wounds in my flesh. I’ve lost the days of rest, which broke the weary chains that pulled me deep into a sea of clouded black. I’ve wandered around the truth, avoiding its sting to my prideful flaws. I indulge my weaknesses, giving to them the means to survive; the means to pull me further beneath the cold touch of regret. I’ve wept and screamed. I know the way to destroy this but I have yet to fire the shot. The heated metal could fly from my gun, ripping through the heart of those who oppress me, but my wavering hand tells of the fear I am made of. Where would I find the courage to squeeze the trigger? I can’t continue with my solitude. I need the change. A walk in awakening towards a melting of impurities may be a start to continuance. These moments will revive in me a passion that has escaped my hand. Don’t watch me crash into fiery disruption; I won’t survive without your words, your embrace, your breath, your touch.

Down, Fall

Baby, just leave me heartless now

Cut apart my words as you hear
This is all I ever could hope for
Just a touch from the flames
End it this way so I can fade
Burning me to a finish
I'll release my hope
Lose memories
Lose my time
My mind
I'm gone

Shift of Life

I ordered an HD camera yesterday! I epically twisted my ankle today! I didn't take an exam today! I'm taking an exam Thursday!

Well my life is typically dull, the same level anyone else would probably evaluate their own life as. I think the reason some people are bored is cause they don't change their life enough. I mean, that's a very obvious observation but life is something we live everyday and the patterns we have can, and do, get really boring as they droll on day by day, unchanging. So once in a while we should wake up early, go take a walk before getting ready for work or school, go to a diner for a nice dose of energizing coffee and pancakes, wake up late so you have to hurry around more than usual, challenge yourself to take a faster shower (that would also be a good way to save on water). We could come home from class or work and instead of walking to the couch, computer, or wherever, turn on some music and dance! We could use some spice of life, some invigorating changes, risks taken, ordering something new from the menu instead of the all too comfortable fettuccine alfredo. Use different words. Learn new ones. Look up old ones and let the freshness of the uncommon phrase livin' things up a smidge. Live it up, make tomorrow a day of difference, a day of newness. I for one am gonna start rustling my neatly arranged feathers of life and hit up some random diner where the waitresses are named Flo and they are almost too friendly with their habit of calling you "Hun" or "Babe" as they refill your mug with the blackest of awakenings. Join me.

By the by, this is not at all what I intended to type when I started. I was gonna talk about a sprained ankle, a new camera, and 789 NYC. Things change though, and change is good ; )