Friday, September 30, 2011

Final

Abandoned hope
Musing surprise
We wash our facts
We de-mand lies

Falling context
Lucid dawn
I change my code
I travel on

Re-traces forgot
Leering smiles
Blasting this world
Creation defiles

Amid the chaos I am undone
Forever with survivalism we overcome
Inside my mind it loses life's fire
Darkness and others cornered in dire

Monday, September 26, 2011

New Styles

Ok. So some new things I plan on doing with this blog are happening right now. As you have probably seen I've been updating my blog with a new post every Friday. All but a few of them have been poems too. What I plan on doing now is updating every Monday with a post sorta like this one and every Friday with a story or poem or some other piece of writing. Right now, I don't have much to roll on about so I think I'll leave this post kinda wandering and let it fade out of specificity and into just whatever comes from my finger right now.

I've been running, working out pretty consistently to lose weight. It's the most solid working out I've done since I've been in college. I'm doing it for my wedding as well as just because I'm tired of having a gut. I'm loving that I have this motivation to continue with this running instead of letting it fade. I'm on my third week and it's a 9 week program

As far school goes, I've said some about it and now that I'm deeper in it I can tell you a little more. I like my Social Psychology class; I've always enjoyed social psych the most. Group dynamics and the concept of our actions being guided by a social survival system is just so neat to me. I'm also in a class where I am learning to give IQ tests to children and adults. Then I have an Applied Behavior Analysis class which is my least favorite class.

Job-wise I've started working as a tutor in a special needs Catholic school in Oklahoma City. The school is partnered with Mercy Hospital. It's a good job and it's not overwhelming. I get to use the hours I work there for some practicum hours for my School Psychology and ABA program. It also helps that I will be able to do some of my projects with the kids I work with there so I won't have to add more to my schedule outside of school and work.

One last bit of something I'd like to say is that I have gotten a main role in an upcoming comedy news web series. The series is being put on by Eyeshock which is a small independent production company here in Oklahoma City. It doesn't have a name yet, the show that is, and I have yet to begin working on it but as of right now I am slated to be a main character on the program and I am excited.

Now I know I've rambled and most of this isn't going to be too interesting but I tried to break it down into smaller bits so that it is easier to digest. I coulda rolled on about random thoughts within these subjects themselves but I did my best not to and if I strayed off too much I apologize. I will try to have the Monday posts be a little more directed next time. Toodles!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Revenir

He dives under at last
His loss of self comes fast
Pains are all but burnt out
Traces of times gone now
His mind throws all away
Eyes search and fix a gaze

Don't get lost here
We all bring faith
It's not just fear
We'll hold your place

Yet he didn't know us
Our shouts, screams, not enough
His turn brought us so close
Some join his comatose
Logic breeds our cold choice
A last flame's metal voice

Friday, September 16, 2011

Walking Me

I fall onto crumbled ground
Their steps unceasing trod toward
Stretching out, we reach for life
Scrambling, teetering me

Standing with unbalanced legs
They still hold with violence
Sinking in, we bleed as one
Struggling, enduring me

I'm fading out of the pain
Blood slows from the dripping wounds
Rising up, we feed this ache
Shuffling, walking me

Friday, September 9, 2011

The Breathing Boys

The breathing boys battle those death lost.
Their minds and mettle calm tremored hands,
Making guns to greatness in bleak lands.
It's cold and chaos that keeps their breath,
Purging the sickness, scorching those left.

But the world gets lost in entropy.
Recovering the rubble does naught,
The aftermath leaves us wrecked, distraught.
Then rises the tribes and savage wars.
Kill the Walking, it's us we abhor.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Soren Pistelis

A noble warrior. A righteous leader. An amalgam of discipline and instinct. Soren Pistelis fought for hundreds of years as soldier of fortune; loyal only to the Contract. His way of dealing with his profession garnered a manner of fluidity and precision that escapes the deepest fathoms of most human perception. Soren’s deeds often times were ebon and cold, heartless and swift. A Dark immortal such as himself thrives on certain cruelties but is not bound by those black musings. We step into Soren’s consciousness in the midst of his final contract—riddled with questions and smoldering thoughts, Soren begins to fade from allegiance to the Contract and grows toward another faith.


I heard their steps falling across the ground. I smelled the dust fluttering in the air behind their boots. A faceless fear crept in each one’s heart and it was me. I moved from the tops of the trees and landed silently on the earthen floor.


What did he mean by revolution?


Focus, Soren. The King must be done away with tonight before he announces his intent to marry. The two guards riding on the carriage will be the most alert and least restless. The three on horseback will be my largest challenge. The 7 on foot are at a much more vulnerable psychological state and I can use their confusion and edginess to disrupt the entire convoy’s resolve. The secondary convoy may attack but the prince will not be a target so his retreat to safety will be their first priority.


When will he begin?


No. Speedy now. Catch up but keep a silent footfall. Now is the time I play with their fears. Yes. I remember now. I fire a psychic blast into the trees opposite of my position and they quickly turn, weak knees and swords at the ready. They keep moving though. I scurry ahead and lob a stone arching high into the air. It flies for an extended period before it falls in front of the lead horseman. The horse rears back momentarily startled. The men do not muster their calm as quickly. A beast knows when it is the one in danger but men can only think of their death once their fear begins to blossom.


“In the name of the king: who goes there?” cries Captain Runely, true courage gracing his words.


The guards stand and stare at the trees as if they themselves will speak up in response to the fading thunder of Runely’s request.


I sat in the darkness seeing so clearly the fear in each of their hearts. Runely’s bravery kept his men from completely losing themselves but it was only a momentary fix.


How does he plan to bring revolution?


Concentrate, Soren! You cannot let his words cloud your mind. Assault their terrors head-on now.


I run ahead of their group as they continue to hurry onward at an increased pace. I step out into the middle of the road, standing firm and cloaked in the night’s darkness. I wait for the cavalcade to come around the bend. Their strides drew them closer and soon their probing eyes found me in the shadows. They stopped in mid-step. I was only a dark figure established in their path but what did they see in me? I regarded their presence with a slow rise of my head. Runely endured steadily, hand on his sword. The rest of the number failed to compose any essence of courage among them despite only encountering a single man.


Runely spoke, “This is the king’s convoy and I advise you to step aside, citizen, or we will be forced to remove you by any means necessary.”


I smiled and conjured a pyrokinetic fire within my palm and allowed it to flow all around me, licking at my body and covering me with flames. And in a quick instant, when the flames had covered me completely, I darted into the woods with the flame extinguishing behind me. The men began to shriek of fire demons and shadow sorcery. They were beyond Runely’s control; he had lost his men in their own deluge of fear and wild imagination.


I strike fast, using a psyblast to knock one of the guards to the ground. He winces in pain as the blast drives deep into his midsection.