That Girl

Break fresh unto my heart
A clouded night with clearness
Your words build me to hope for more
But my hope has been taken before
Is it possible for me to ever grow?
Must I sit in circles, losing time?
My years have been wrong if this is it
I've tried to fight, be slow, be smart
But waves engulf me
I know my passion and I know I value
Still it's difficult to see past myself
I don't know how many more times I can handle this
I've invested naturally for so long
I don't think it's possible with effort
I don't think I have the patience to try
This is a moment of loss, of grasping
But I want a lifetime of holding
Something to keep me together
I felt that
I know there's more
How do I embrace it?
She's true
She has to feel something
Is boldness my path now?
I am in a haze
I became whole with her touch
I awoke like never before
My thoughts are pulling to that name
That face
That smile
Those words
And reacting has never been harder

I'm Stable. I'm Okay.

This night I felt a tumult
This day began to crumble
I pretend it's not happening
I cannot shake my trembling
Such mortality brought
Such stability rocked
It's a search for maybes
It's those empty phrases
The fire eats my heart
The emotions drag apart
After this it's humanity
After loss is insanity