Revealing Some

This is it? A confrontation now. It was fed by truths I found that sparked and grew. It was a hard thing to tell. It was requested. It was rejected. I had my suspicions about the motivation but threw them off as a fleeting thought. Why shouldn't I? There was reason given to me. False reason I believed blindly. Then the stop brought out the frustrations inside. I began something and pushed on with it. I immediately knew the wrong was mine. I apologized, I had regret. But the reaction received can not help but be questioned and unjustified for me. I sometimes hate what this is. Love is patient... kind... confusing... twisting... feared by some... understood by few... and sometimes hated by me. I'm just gonna wait things out. I can do this. I want to do this. I need to do this. I definitely will do this...

Words and Visions

A photo shoot of fun. My good friend needed some photos for her website and we had been saying she should do a shoot of us, The Haaj, and she finally did it this past weekend.  It was the most fun I've ever had taking pictures. There were tons of things we did and we just had alot of random fun.

In other news, the semi-single life has gripped me. At one point I was dating a wonderful girl, some of the earlier posts referred to this indirectly. We are still in a mutual liking of one another but we are taking it in a more casual direction. There are alot of changes going on in both our lives and a more serious relationship, like what we were headed towards, isn't something we can really handle adequately right now. Things will go on and who knows what will be in store for the two of us in the future. I'm just gonna let God lead me to where I need to be.

Dis-Stressed

Wow. I'm simply in awe. Nature seems to be the instigator here. Yet it feels as if it came into existence on its own. Nothing comes with effort it seems. An exchange with no hesitation or rules in sight. Why am I so happy here? I usually disconnect and worry alone. But this, this has started better than times before when things were primed. If starting here is this strong then where will it end? What about the times of ease? It seems things will only improve. An admitted frustration lingers over the distance, but it's nothing we can't cover. We are both strong. We'll help each other in more ways than one. There is a thought in my head... but sometimes my passion jumps fast. My smile is consistent these days. When my eyes pass it, I lose control. Just two more days and it will be released into full freedom. We see together like nothing else. We speak together like time isn't there. I know I haven't been this mutual with someone. The last and before are gone now to me. Today is today and that's more than I need.